It doesn’t get easier knowing that you’ve got cancer, there’s no acceptance just a ‘get on with it’ attitude. It is hard to not break down every single day and to get out of bed and face the day but I know if I stop, my body will stop. I feel the knowing is the hardest thing and if I didn’t I would be happier but when looking at the positives, I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t know and I do enjoy life.
This week I have applied for universities and received some offers which I am delighted with but I can’t help but think I won’t finish the course that I enrol on to. A lot more is difficult about university aswell: I need the grades, which I was getting, but I am struggling to focus and revise in the middle of treatment, I need to explain my condition to universities, and I need to decide where to move to that will also be accessible to the hospital. I know most of these problems are faced by many students but I am worrying more now this has came a long.
Enough of a whinge, I’ve been approached by a few people for podcasts and I am happy to say that I want to do them. I want to spread awareness of my condition while I can and try and inspire people with my story. I’m not scared to tell my story, I’m proud of it because that’s who I am.
Finally, I just want to thank everyone for supporting me to help spread awareness and increase funding into research. I’ve now gained over 5,000 followers on Instagram and I just want to say thank you, it means a lot to me and a lot to other people with a similar condition to mine. Thank you