This week has felt so long and it’s been so tiring. I know for a fact I’m not the only one who’s felt like that, so I’m not going to write how I’ve got everything much worse because I don’t think I have. Everyone has their own struggles and things may feel harder for them. Just a diagnosis isn’t going to make me feel the strain. However, having said that about it ‘just’ being a diagnosis is absolutely rubbish. It’s a mental battle as well as a physical battle. My mind keeps wandering and I do struggle. I see people complaining about little things and I despair. I do acknowledge how bad they may be finding the situation, but there’s so much more to life. For example, exams aren’t worth the stress or ‘panic attacks’ because that is your supposed specialist subject. It’s normal to feel a bit worried but going over the top isn’t worth it. And what’s it for? A letter or number.
This blog is an honest blog, so that’s what I’ll be. Living with cancer isn’t nice, it’s awful. Constantly thinking if your cancer has grown, spread or if you’re going to wake up the next day. This week has taught me we are a lot closer to the end than we think. I feel fine but I’m not, I look well but I’m not. It really makes me upset, I have friends and future plans. Now they’ve just been crushed. The job I wanted, I can’t see that far ahead. I’m being optimistic about seeing the end of university but I will, I won’t let it not happen. I know that’s not my decision because I have no control but I’ll try my best to make it my decision.
What else have I done this week and how am I going to move forward? Well… I’m definitely feeling stronger with my exercise and now I’ve got an exercise bike, I feel like I can get even stronger. Chemotherapy may knock it out of me and cause swelling, which is uncomfortable but not painful, but I’ll get stronger so I have to lose more and then be at an advantage. What next? I have some thoughts of what I want to do next, I may make so e YouTube videos with the camera I got for Christmas explaining what I’ve been through and what to expect with a Cancer diagnosis.
Finally, as you know I’m a student, I would like to ask you a favour that will take around 2 minutes of your time. I’m conducting a language investigation and was wondering if you could help. All you need to do is listen to the voices and answer a few questions. Thank you in advance. You can find the link here
Again, thank you so much for reading my blog. I would appreciate if you could share this to help other people to see it, in order to help them. Thank you so much and I’m always sending my love.