1 step forward 2 steps back

Welcome back to my blog, and for those who are reading for the first time, this is an entirely honest blog and explores life living as a cancer patient.  As most of you know from previous blog posts, my brain tumour was starting to look a bit smaller somehow and I’m starting to get a lot fitter. I wish I could say that was still the case.

After having back pain for around 2 weeks, I thought it was muscular until Friday morning my feet were tingly and I got an appointment at my hospital that morning. So very grateful for that. Everything seemed great, ‘best neurological assessment’ my doctor had seen but he sent me for a scan that afternoon.  I knew straight away something wasn’t right.

Following an hour scan on my spine I had an appointment with my oncologist.  I knew what he was going to say. He looked devastated and the he said “it’s not good news I’m afraid ” , I was trying to be strong and hold back the tears but I honestly thought why do that? I had a cry because now I need treatment for my spine, which gas never been an issue before. This diagnosis came exactly a year and a day after my last surgery.  Now I’m just trying to get through life. More radiotherapy for me. I always joke that I’ve had my monies worth from the NHS but now I feel a bit of a pushover. I have never paid tax.

All I know now is I need radiotherapy again and I don’t know how it’s going to affect going to university.  But what I do know is that whatever is thrown at me, I’ll accept it and get through it. So I’m launching my fundraiser: I want to walk 10,000 steps a day during spinal radiotherapy,  which I appreciate is stupid but I’ve got to stay fit. I’ll be raising money for MOVE charity who are a charity who have provided me with both physical and mental support during my diagnosis.  You can donate to my fundraiser here.

https://uk.virginmoneygiving.com/MatthewPullan2

Thank you so much for everyone’s support,  I honestly couldn’t keep going without you. We’ll get through this and keep moving.

3 thoughts on “1 step forward 2 steps back

  1. You’ve had your moneys worth out of the NHS and never paid any taxes.
    Don’t you dare feel guilty. Hopefully some of the 50 some years I paid in will be going towards you.. Also remember your dad and Claire are ‘paying in’ so you’re entitled to some of that. xxxx

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