This week hadn’t been the best but becoming a Brain Tumour Charity ambassador and fundraising with the Maggies Centre had been enjoyable/ fun yo an extent. I do love helping but sometimes it can become too much. I was sat at Maggies quite emotionally. I know why I’m there and you find a lot of competing from people who’s had if worse. I’ll be honest the ones that have it worse don’t compete. There’s 2 of us still on treatment and 2 of us with a terrible prognosis, so I know it’s hard but be tactful.
I am struggling mentally, everything seems to be happening at once. My twin brother is moving to Uniiversity in London I should be moving but I can’t I’m doing open university at home, my brother is moving into year 11 and I feel left behind on treatment. I find it really difficult and I do cry and thing “why now?’
I do sag things I don’t mean because I’m jealous or I want to do it. But I know in reality I can’t and I’m proud of them. I’m struggling but I shouldn’t hold anyone back and I know that.
They’ve got a life and I mustn’t spoil it.